didee blog

2008 around the corner.. and my life is ChaOtiC..

wow..i havent written a blog in ages...and to be honest im not gud wt words either... but well in tribute to the coming new year i gotta write something...

let me start by telling my current situation( hope will remember dis moment later or not?)..my last semester as a bachelor student actually started today and i didnt go to class( yes it is naughty naughty of me),well i guess anyone else was also in da holiday mood anyway, since the 25th is xmas holiday... and the worst thing is i spent the nite before watching kdramas! until...well...very late...

yea during the hols ive turn into a chronic kdrama addict/downloader/zombie,yikes... the funny thing about me is the more time i tink i haf, for example during hols, the more i intend to not sleep! yea dats me... dis cud actually decrease my IQ,lacking sleep...and im already blur to start with!..

all i can truly say is im in shambles..thinking ...about my future after i grad, wat my life wud be, wat my next step wud be..and its taking the toll on me...and my kdramas is where i relieve my uncertainties or at least some other thing ...but mostly now its kdramas ..

my fren once told me dat if she was to steal anything from me, dat wud be my coolness towards things.. for example, as she says, even during times where other peoples' minds are in a cHaotiC state ( as in a war crisis chaOtiC, or britney spears' life CHaotiC! i added the extra dramatism for gud measure), i still maintain a level of coolness that it is almost absurd for any right mind! there...wooo... yup i tink im like dat too.... its not im  dont worry, i just HATE and lazy to worry too much..it'll only mess up my brain even... and when im lazy im unshakeable like excalibur in the rock! so, im hoping my 'king arthur' will one day step up and pull me out...haha...

wat im going wt dis coolness of mine is dat tinking of graduation and the future makes me uncool..so im a complete M-E-S-S now.. once again kamsahamnida korea for ur dramas...

so im tinkin masters or work after grads? many ppl suggest finish up masters then work cos its better to finish everything up at once , besides the job market is competitive nowadays.. but i dont tink ive found wat branch i want to focus on yet for my masters...and i dont want to grab the chance (help me spell oppoturnity please, i tink did is wrong, i might forget to check the dictionary later) just because its open but bcos i want it as well, bcos i haf interest in it.. and i want to put my heart (and soul?)  in it... aigoo, ITS DAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?!!!! IS DIS FOOLISH OF ME!!!???....woah.,'emo alert'...but seriously its not foolish rite? is it right to think dat? ps: im doing bachelors in microbiology,yup... if anyone doesnt know wat a micribiologist do..put it dis way we specialise in life form which can only be observed thru the microscope...bacteria,virus etc...

well i gtg cos its already 5 am...but i want to continue dis.. i'll be back(in arnold kind of tone)...=)

hectic time for didee

hmm...now at home..lot assignment not done yet but im typing dis and watching mtV! wow...hahaha...im so weak when it comes to tv(and all those mtv and anime!*drool,drool*) and its scary...ALTHOUGH SUMTIMES I CAN BE EXTRA HARDWORKING! hehe...

at this time,im at the most confusing time..im finishing my second yr...i'm still confused wether or not to do practical and what subject to take

im bad at thinking ahead and making decision..is going with the flow such a bad thing?hmmmm...

exam's around the corner too and my head's spinning...*ouch*  but i try to do my best(i hope)..just hope the lazy bug doesnt bite me around that time...aja aja didee!*cheerleaders cheering*.bring it on!

ok..bye bye for now

 

wuteva! just bored...

hello bloggers...its been really long since i wrote a blog...which in fact i dont think really counts as a blog but well....ok since evryone is pouring their heart out in their blogs...i also felt like doing sumtin..dont wanna be left out..so here goes...

rite now,im suppose to look for my microbe report info but i havent started, im feeling a bit stressed cos tests are coming up and a whole load of other stuff are also crumming up my day activities...

also feeling disappointed....i sumtimes feel dis way about myself and also things around me. i found out sumting about a person i like and i felt angry at first but now when i see the person i felt sad cos i  usually dont stay mad for long and the feeling dats left is sadness and disappoinment. sad to discover dat person is not who i think he was and i felt i haf to stay away cos if i act casual then it will be like i was letting him get away with what he did.(and the thing dat he did involved one of my frens too).. i dont like confrontation so the only way is to keep quiet when i see him or move away but trying not to be mean at the same time....it bloody sucks to feel dis way.

the funny thing is he probably wont notice my cold treatment cos im not a significant person in his life...so the joke is still on me...so there goes another disappoinment in my one side love,huhu..i guess or maybe it isnt dat dramatic...anyway im spose to say wutever i want in here,arent i? u tink u like sumone but u knoe dat person likes sumone else or isnt rite for u or worse ur not gud enuf for him or worst dat person likes sumone else!---then u start to tink wut is there for ur self?

i felt dat way a zillion times and evrytime i watch a romantic movie i convinced myself one more time dat there is a time for evryone...i sumtimes cry too cos i felt i might never haf dat romance dat i dreamed of,and also cos the scenes are just too beautiful(in my fs profile,i did mention i am a hopeless romantic,i tink)...is it possible in the real world that a person could luv sumone like in the movies?..its very overwhelming but then...is it possible?dat thought is still in my mental x-files..among other things...

a romantic dream...

I Belong To You
	Eros Ramazzotti feat. Anastacia
Adesso no, non voglio piu difendermi Superero dentro di me gli ostacoli I miei momenti piu difficili Per te There is no reason, there is no rhyme It's crystal clear I hear your voice And all the darkness disappears Everytime I look into your eyes You make me love you Questo inverno finira And I do truly love you Fuori e dentro me How you make me love you Con le sue diffcolta And I do truly love you I belong to you, you belong to me Forever Want you Baby I want you And I thought that you should know That I believe And your the wind that's underneath my wings I belong to you, you belong to me Ho camminato su pensieri ripidi You're my fantasy Per solitudini e deserti aridi You're my gentle breeze Al ritmo della tua passione ora io vivro And I'll never let you go L'amore attraversero You're the piece that makes me whole Le onde dei suoi attimi I can feel you in my soul Profondi come oceani Vincero per te le paure che io sento Quanto bruciano dentro le parole che non ho piu detto, sai... Oh.. Want you Baby I want u And I thought that you should know That I believe Lampi nel silenzio siamo noi yeah I belong to you, you belong to me You're the wind that's underneath my wings I belong to you, you belong to me Yeah hey yeah he Adesso io ti sento I will belong forever to you Copyright (c) 2006 Sony Music Entertainment (M) Sdn Bhd

my song!!!

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends